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profundisI have decided that this is just not fucking fair. This may be an irrational thought but: 1) this is an irrational situation, and 2) I don’t give a shit if it’s an irrational thought. I am sad but I’m also pissed. Jim at his age had more drive and discipline and vision than men twice his age. He had goals. And not goals like “I want to save up for a 60g iPod” but solid life goals that men I know that were twice his age never had or certainly never realized. He was planning to make a difference and not just in his pocketbook or to his own immediate kith and kin.
More than that he had a plan…one that didn’t involve sitting around getting high and playing video games 24/7. Which is not to say that stoner/gamer/whatever folks are less loved or less valuable in our hearts, but have you taken a look at the country out there? The world? We could use some help out here folks, and now we’re missing a man. He was 22 years old. If you have some talent or vision or dream that you are putting off til next year, or next decade for no good reason – stop that. If you have something to do, something to contribute, whatever it is…please do get on with it, time’s a wastin’.
The following is a snippet of a chat log between Jim and I earlier this year when my friend Brian died. I find it both appropriate and haunting to share.
Me: Hey cub
Jim: hey, how have you been
Me: Mostly good, just cranking through clinic...but got bad news this weekend, a friend of mine died of a heart attack
Jim: congrats on officially getting the other certificate. sorry to hear about the friend, was he a younger guy?
Me: Thanks - now I just have to do my hours to get the CMT. My friend was not younger, but too damn young ...40.
Jim: yeah 40 is still way too young for something like that to happen. puts everything in perspective doesn't it
Me: sure does.
Yes, Jim, it certainly does.
More than that he had a plan…one that didn’t involve sitting around getting high and playing video games 24/7. Which is not to say that stoner/gamer/whatever folks are less loved or less valuable in our hearts, but have you taken a look at the country out there? The world? We could use some help out here folks, and now we’re missing a man. He was 22 years old. If you have some talent or vision or dream that you are putting off til next year, or next decade for no good reason – stop that. If you have something to do, something to contribute, whatever it is…please do get on with it, time’s a wastin’.
The following is a snippet of a chat log between Jim and I earlier this year when my friend Brian died. I find it both appropriate and haunting to share.
Me: Hey cub
Jim: hey, how have you been
Me: Mostly good, just cranking through clinic...but got bad news this weekend, a friend of mine died of a heart attack
Jim: congrats on officially getting the other certificate. sorry to hear about the friend, was he a younger guy?
Me: Thanks - now I just have to do my hours to get the CMT. My friend was not younger, but too damn young ...40.
Jim: yeah 40 is still way too young for something like that to happen. puts everything in perspective doesn't it
Me: sure does.
Yes, Jim, it certainly does.
