Farther's Day
Jun. 18th, 2007 12:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
profundisSpent the day at the family chicken ranch for Father's Day. Had a good time hanging out with mom, step-dad, step-bro, and step-sis. Helped mom make lasagna (the old tried-and-true recipe, mmmm) and we made homemade peach ice cream too.
This was the first Father's Day since Dad died that I didn't think of him first. I have been really emo lately and the approaching date may have triggered that, but today I didn't think of him until after I was already up there. That realization made me feel simultaneously proud and sad. Not guilty though.
Just as I was starting to get all moody and emo about it, my mom walked out on the porch where I'd hidden myself and asked: "What you doin' out here by yourself, thinkin' about Daddy and bein' sad?"
Damn her and her intuition! LOL! I said "Good guess" and the rest of the day was fine. I think my step-dad had a great time with all of us there too. He has really come a long way since he first showed up on the scene and he has taken his role seriously.
I know so many of you have or had shitty or non-existant relationships with your fathers and I wish it was otherwise for you. I had a shitty span of about 6 years in my early teens but other than that I had an awesome dad and I knew he had my back, that I was the apple of his eye, and I am so glad I had that.
Gah, while I was typing all this "Bridge Over Troubled Water" came on my iTunes. Owch.
I still channel him all the time in things I say and do, good and bad. I makes me feel like he is with me.
Happy Father's Day, Dad.
This was the first Father's Day since Dad died that I didn't think of him first. I have been really emo lately and the approaching date may have triggered that, but today I didn't think of him until after I was already up there. That realization made me feel simultaneously proud and sad. Not guilty though.
Just as I was starting to get all moody and emo about it, my mom walked out on the porch where I'd hidden myself and asked: "What you doin' out here by yourself, thinkin' about Daddy and bein' sad?"
Damn her and her intuition! LOL! I said "Good guess" and the rest of the day was fine. I think my step-dad had a great time with all of us there too. He has really come a long way since he first showed up on the scene and he has taken his role seriously.
I know so many of you have or had shitty or non-existant relationships with your fathers and I wish it was otherwise for you. I had a shitty span of about 6 years in my early teens but other than that I had an awesome dad and I knew he had my back, that I was the apple of his eye, and I am so glad I had that.
Gah, while I was typing all this "Bridge Over Troubled Water" came on my iTunes. Owch.
I still channel him all the time in things I say and do, good and bad. I makes me feel like he is with me.
Happy Father's Day, Dad.
